Tonight I feel hollow...

And I've no idea why...

Excerpt from my notebook...

 

I want to dance until my feet refuse to move. I want to write until my fingers bleed. I want to run until my legs tremble at the mere thought of standing. I want to push myself to the precipice of my beliefs, just so that I can see the world in another way, and really truly feel alive.

Tonight I feel human...

Tonight I feel human. I dared to hope for something all souls crave. I dared to consider taking tentative steps forward to what draws all humans like moths to a flame. For a small amount of time, I allowed myself to desire that elusive warmth which I consider nearly impossible to obtain. I almost allowed myself to believe that I could lay the most fragile part of myself in someone else's hands.
Almost.
Now I am feeling the twinge of sorrow and longing that accompanies the undesired acceptance that my former belief was true. I won't, probably can't find anyone I could trust enough to do so. So tonight I feel human. And am hating myself for it.

The Rage in Placid Lake

I love this movie. It was downright awesome. The dialogue was witty, the characters original and brilliant and the overall plot an amusing treat. This movie easily won me over.