Toying with an idea.

So I've been toying with a new idea as of late, I'm still not certain if I should or will follow through with it, but I do miss the feedback I would get from my poems, so I wanna know what you all think. If I put up my blog Defiantly Simple again, it would only have 5 poems a month, some new creations, some old. But once the month was over I would put up different ones. I wouldn't let my poems accumulate on the blog, and I'd unblock the previous followers. So tell me what you think, but don't get your hopes up, the main reason I've cut back on blogging so much was because I had a hard time maintaining the blogs in between my schedule.

Kind of an Update.

Watching My Sister's Keeper with my family trying not to cry...

This entire week has been kind of off and crazy. And not just me apparently it's been a bit of an off week for a lot of people...

Awww, the movie is so sweet...

Ok, back to what I was saying...it's been a weird week.

I'm so glad that it's over. I can't wait till holiday break rolls around which should be next week I think, it's not much of a relaxing break, but it's a break for my head...kinda. No more headaches from thinking constantly about work. Just a little work...

No, I'm gonna start crying...

Ok, I'm cutting this short, I really can't get into writing mode when I'm watching a movie. L8r.

Just a phase...

I fear blogging may have just been a phase, and now I'm coming out of the phase...

For those of you who have noticed, my two other blogs have been taken down.

They will not be coming back up.

With one, I did not maintain well enough, nor did I have enough visitors to it, to justify it being up. The other one Defiantly Simple I will (hopefully) be turning into a book, and so will not put it back up again. For those who would wish for a copy of the book when (and if) it is published, I will post information on how to get it on this blog, or restore Defiantly Simple for that post only.

I will leave this blog up for the time being, until I have fully decided whether or not I want to quit blogging all together. Until then, enjoy...

Autumn

The ground inlaid with the richest browns, is paved with gold and fiery red for this one season of the year the world celebrates change with a display like no other. The wind weaves new and more intricate dances with every new sun's reign. The sky performs both night and day alternating between tragedies and tales of adventures witnessed. Change takes place. Not with sweet and gentle embraces like that of spring but fiery passionate and bold dances.

Talking Trust

I so badly wish I had to someone to talk to, but I just don't trust anyone enough to let them inside my head...let alone my heart...

Something about a Bad Boy...

What is it about bad boys that is so damn alluring? I mean every girl who doesn't have the silly notion that they can change them, knows they will get hurt, knows that the boy is just trouble waiting to happen? But does that make the guy any less attractive? Does that make him any less alluring? Not in the least. So what is it, that makes them so damn irresistible?

Sweet 16

Crummy start...but ok so far...

EDIT: Sept. 12

Hi, so I'm 16 now.
And well my birthday was awesome. It turns out that my parents made their wedding dinner rehearsal a surprise birthday party for me. It was a lot of fun. Everyone knew, I couldn't believe I didn't find out. So it was awesome. But now that I'm 16, I've got ask; What's so great about this age? I mean it's the same as all the as all the years before it, pretty average.

P.S. Thanks Rafe.

Act my age...

I have never acted my age.
When I was little I acted older than my age.
Now I act too young.
I fear that someday soon, I'll have to start acting my age.
I fear that day's arrival.
It seems far too soon...

Lazy Toss Out...

So I just finished reading all your posts, that I had let pile up in reader. And as usually my thoughts are churning, and and keeping , me wired. Which is not good, at least at 3:10 in the morning when I should be snoozing. However because it is 3 something in the morning, I have a feeling my second wind (which usually kicks in between 11 and 2 AM) is about to let my fall on my butt anytime now. So I'm gonna make this quick. And sadly even though I have read your interesting, and amusing posts that had me actually generating thoughts that didn't involve fiction stories, geometry, how to avoid doing geometry, or how frustrating math in general is. My mind has whirled and whirled and lazily and wearily tossed out three things.

1) As I turn 18, I am getting a tattoo on my neck whether anyone (specifically my parents) approves of it or not.

2)If I do not get my shit together by tomorrow morning, I am going to have wasted my whole summer on a geometry class that I will have failed.

And

3) I must remember to finally write down my thoughts on the way written words affect people and how beautifully we weave them. Sometimes.

Currently my eyes are getting heavier with every word, so without further ado, goodnight...

No Nothings fly high...

I know almost nothing. Not even what I want.
So why is it sometimes, I feel as though I could take on the world?

?

They say those who will do anything to achieve their ends, are those who have everything to lose, or nothing to lose. So what do you do, when your neither?

Not much...

I haven't posted in a while. Sorry. There's not much going on anyway, I do my math class and stay home. Not a very exciting summer. I'll hopefully have more to blog about when I get up there. Well Later. :)

Passing Through...

More thoughts that passed throught my head...

Even the people who know me best never seem to realize, that what I say and what I am thinking can be two different things sometimes.

Sometimes when I wake up to find I've lost a sock under the covers, I wonder if I could lose my mind under them too...

Sometimes it's not where the road took us that matters, but what we learned along the way...

It's hindsight now...Don't forget it. Just don't focus on it. The present needs it's turn now, and the future is in line.

I need to learn how to teleport...It's just too hard being so far from people I love.

Sometimes I wonder if the only reason therapists and psychiatrists are still in business are because people just want someone to listen to them.


We are born to be nothing...but ourselves. And who we are is up to us.


No matter how much the world changes, human stupidity will always stay the same.

Sometimes it's what's not said, that makes the greatest impact.

When the words won't leave my mouth, I let them flow freely from my fingers.

Silly Math!

Math makes so much more sense when, people don't start adding silly titles and words to it. Ugh!

Music Questionaire

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down (my comments are in green)

If someone says "Is this Okay?" You say:

Last Resort
Papa Roach (that would be a no...)

How would you describe yourself?

Stop and Stare
One Republic (I am a bit of a day dreamer)

What do you like in a guy/girl?

Crazy
Gnarles Barkley (just a little bit, makes them fun to be around)

How do you feel today?

Say it Right
Nelly Furtado (umm, yeah not even close)

What's your life purpose?

This Year
The Mountain Goats (yeah, I don't know...)

What do your friends think of you?

Pain
3 Days Grace (I try very hard to not be a pain)

What do your parents think of you?

Devil in a Midnight Mass
Billy Talent (Not uh...well not anymore...)


What do you often think about?

Beautiful
Christina Aguilera (uh...beauty in things around me, maybe...I guess)


What do you think about the person you like?

Undeniable
Matt Kearney (...)

What is your life's story?

Big Dreams
Bow Wow (I guess yeah)

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Rush
Aly & Aj (yeah, no clue...)

What will you dance to at your wedding?

Never Again
Nickelback (we won't have to look anymore? I don't know...)


What will they play at your funeral?

Goodnight
Zox (close enough)

What is your biggest fear?

Encore (Numb remix)
Linkin Park and Jay-Z (not even close...)


What is your biggest secret?

Whispers in the dark
Skillet (...)


What is your future going to be like?

What Goes Around
Justin Timberlake (hmm, doesn't sound good...)


What do you see in the person you like?

Extreme Ways
Moby (no, not even close)


What will the song be for you and your spouse?

Prologue
Harry Potter Soundtrack (yeah, I don't get it...)

I really stink @ monoply...

I really stink @ monoply...

Others' Fights.

I am sick of getting caught in other peoples' fights.

Really Long Naps.

Ok so I haven't really been blogging lately, but don't worry I don't intend to let my blogs die, just...take really long naps. I haven't been writing much lately, so my poems are few and far between if any, but school is almost over, and I'll have more time to write soon. I just need to get through the home stretch. L8r.

Old Tales Now.

All the tales we'll be babbling when we're old are the memories we're making right now...

XD Can't stop Laughing....

I have plenty of poems I could edit and post, but I just can't edit them when I'm laughing so hard. Comedy Central has some of the funniest comedians. XD

Speechless.

Sometimes when there is too much to say,

It's better to not say any thing at all...

Sunscreen!

Ideas.

So many ideas that swirl about my head... I write them as fast as I can, before they leave, and swirl about another's head. Their like breezes impossible to catch, flighty, but always make an effect. They have an agenda all their own. Free from human rules and time. The hardest part is to write them down before they blow away...

Things long dead and gone.

Chivalry is dead along with common sense and lasting marriages. All three decided that this world is to insane to hang around. So they packed up and took off one by one. Leaving us to dance forever with our beloved chaos. Though common sense never really resided with us, it would occasionally stop by. But no more now it just watches from it's perch somewhere in the stars, laughing away at our stupidity. It even shares popcorn with chivalry. While lasting marriage sits and waits for love to join them.

Goodbye.

If you had to say goodbye to someone you love,
knowing you'd never see them again,
How would you say goodbye?

It's not even 5

It's not even 5 in the morning, and I CAN'T SLEEP!

Fleeting Thoughts...

Sometimes I get lost in my own head...

When I'm pushing myself to the edge, It's because I want to feel something real...

Sometimes I wonder if I'll be just as confused about the world when I'm 40 as I am right now...

Confusion is something you get when you start growing up and it never goes away...

The greatest treasure lost, was never gold but knowledge...

Though I am not proud of some of my ancestors actions... I will never be ashamed of where I come from...

If you let yourself go to music it can be anything...

From dreary to downright intoxicating...

There are fantastic worlds I visit in my mind's eye, I only wish I could share them as clearly as I experience them...

The sad thing about crime is usually there is a sad story on each end. There are rarely any true villains in life, just more unhealed desperate and confused people.

Definition. Our way of giving meaning to everyday life. We define everything. Even people. Especially people. So what do you define yourself as? How do you define yourself? How do you want to be defined? When your time has come and gone, what will your definition be?

~~~

I'm always jotting my thoughts jot somewhere figured, I'd post them...

Cloud head.

Sometimes I just can't get my head out of the clouds...

Morning Rain.

I don't like cold rain.
The cold just zaps all the fun out of being in the rain.
It's been raining a lot here, it even rained on Valentines Day. I went up to San Fran to help my Aunt in her flower shop. It was cold, windy and rainy as usual. Oh and I have the whole week of school off this week, so that's kind of nice. I haven't been able to get a lot of sleep lately, and I woke up really upset over a dream I couldn't even remember (I hate hormones.). So I had a bit of a crummy start this morning but I'm okay, now. Well it's already 1 and I haven't really eaten anything yet, so L8tr.

Icicles.

"Hey look Icicles! They're real here too!"
"But ours back home are cooler, they light up." -my sister

What she said when we went skiing with my dad. My dad and I couldn't stop laughing.

Little

I miss being little.

Things were so much simpler then.